Today, I've decided to write an "I Forgive You" letters to people that have hurt me. No. Not hurt but the correct word shud be disappointed me.. Its really works for my peace of mind and I do feel release. If you wanna catch up on the story, baca kat SINI. I do really love her as my sister and a good friend of mine..so, when something going wrong between us, I started to avoiding her.. until she write me a sorry email that makes me cry and touched my heart. So sweet.. Here my reply..
I've decided to do a bunch of these "I Forgive You". Even if you're not say sorry...I already forgive you. Thank you for make an effort to write me an email for apologized.
I still think about you sometimes. I don't know if I'll ever be able to help that since there's SO much that reminds me of you. You are more like my sister to me rather a good friend. Whenever I eat blueberry cheese cake especially, I think about you and how you're the person that teaches me how to make the yummy blueberry cheese cake. Whenever Kak Azura tells me about your story, I kind of avoiding but stil inside i wanted to know about u. I wondered if you were sad when u have fight with your husband or with your relatives. And I wonder if you are happy at your new workplace. Or if you were happy when u deliver a new born baby.
You're the person that gave me the best idea of life.. Just like my sister, you are very open to share with me your marriage story life, working life as well as your personal life that I think its very useful for me to adopt what goods and what not. I still love that and think about it often.
I could go on and on for days about the good things I remember about you, but I won't. I'm sure you remember. You were a good friend to me during those years. A VERY good friend to me. I don't know what happened. I just feel that i cannot pretend to be ok and be patient with your attitude. Whenever u have problem with other people, u will easily throw your anger to your closed friend. And whenever u feel not right, u will simply swing your mood and raise your voice to people. Even tho it will not take long for you to calm down and be ok..its still give a "black mark" in our heart. Since we also a human, we do have feeling as well. Yeah, I probably would've been sad about it, Seem like you are not respect our friendship or respect us as a human. But I would've wanted to continue our friendship... :D
I'm not gonna continue to be mad at you. There's no way I can believe that we just never cared about each other for almost 1 year. That's not possible. I know you cared. We went through too much and shared way too many things with each other. And I know u are such a caring sister for me.. and you are kind person too.
I guess that's really all I have to say. I forgive you and I'm not mad about it anymore. I'll never forget it, but I'm not gonna carry around this anger anymore. I know you'll be a good friend. Do forgive me as well. For all bad thing that i've done to u.
The stubborn person who missed her sister
Rashlyzz Note : Know what?? I did believe that, after all forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. Hope Allah will blessed our friendship and may this friendship last forever. Amin..
To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you - Lewis B. Smedes
Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it~Mark Twain
Weee............ HAPPY!!!! ;P